This is Ninsi guest blogging due to my blog still being out of commission.
We've got 8 days 'til the wedding. And I'm seriously losing sleep over it, or at least having very restless sleep. I've been going to bed earlier and earlier every night, and I wake up every morning less and less refreshed.
Stuff I'm worrying about:
Will there be enough time for everyone to get their hair/make-up done?
How am I getting to the wedding?
What am I forgetting?
How can I be sure everything goes as planned?
I'm the only one who knows what's going on the day of, my bridesmaids won't be getting in town until an hour before the rehearsal, assuming they actually leave on time, they can't decide on how their hair will be done, despite me telling them how I want it done - I don’t want to turn into bridezilla, but how can I be sure the whole thing doesn't turn into a huge joke of a fiasco.
I know stuff will go wrong. I know it wont' be perfect. But my concern is that it will be complete chaos with no one knowing what's going on.
On top of that the weather man is getting increasingly more adamant about it raining on Sat. 60% chance now.
We do have a back up plan, and in reality, the back up plan will make things simpler, since there will be no transporting btwn ceremony and reception sites, and we'll have an extra hour to get everything ready.
I just feel so not prepared, I know I'm forgetting about a million things.
I still need to make the final payments on the cake, caterer and chairs. And I know I'm forgetting something else. And I just don't feel sure that someone will tell me if I've forgotten something. I just feel it all sitting on my shoulders and it's weighing me down. My shoulders and back hurt almost constantly from the stress. The pain in my left shoulder sometimes runs straight up and down my spite, into my head, and down my left arm. Every now and then someone will come up behind me and squeeze my shoulders, and I want to just beg them not to stop.
I do have a massage scheduled for Friday, but I'm not sure if I can make it that long, or if it will even do me any good, because I'll be spending the day with my mom, who is notorious for adding more stress.
On top of all this mess my bachelorette party is stressing me out. No one who's coming knows anyone else who is coming very well at all. At most they've met once or twice (except bunny and chicken). Yesterday I was ready to call the night off because I've been too worried about people enjoying themselves.
I'm able to put off most of the stress about the honeymoon off until after the wedding, I've got 2 weeks to worry about it then. But I hate that all I want is for everything just to be over with. I'm not looking forward to anything anymore.